Understanding sadness ...

Things have got a little out of hand. My popularity quotient has been on a steady descent since the last time i posted. That once again brings me to the point where am forced to review my behavioural anomalies that induce an intense hatred in the hearts of people. The truth is I really cant think of many reasons why people should display any kind of special liking for me. But when i try to think about it, I cant evoke memories of too many instances where i might have troubled people and made myself seem undespicable to their eyes.

But why can't I be totally ignored without the sneery glances and mocking laughs! I mean isn't that a much better and much more dignified way of tackling people you dont need in your life? Why this deliberate action made to throw the person out for good! Can't i simply be left alone to a life of insignificance. where am left free to to imagine that I'm capable of doing good around me. To imagine that I could be kind & generous & compassionate if i were close to someone.. To imagine that people would love me if they knew who i really am!

But life is always springing unexpected surprises. You never know what is going to happen next. That's the beauty of it. In one day, just one day, all the fun and frolic can come to an end and i maybe left all alone ... ostracized by the real world for being mean and selfish .. forced to break all ties and stop concocting stories about all the goodness that exists .. left alone to a state of poignant regret .. forcing my mind's attic to filter out thoughts that speak of anything close to happiness ... The party is over, dude!!!