Why does he keep running away? He ran away again today. From my questions. "Has she told her parents?", I asked. "Maybe she has", he said and rushed to the other end of the library through the maze of books and picked up a book hardly looking at it.

Is he going to marry her afterall. And what if he is! Why does it matter to me so much!

Is that why he is so depressed? Is that why he needs to smoke 10 cigarettes a day all of a sudden? Because he is decieving me. Because that is the only way he can save his relationship with her! Was I in the way? When was I in the way?